I am not the kind of person who likes to be lost. I will immediately look up directions and ask for someone’s guidance before I will wander around in the hopes of getting to my destination. It’s a terrible feeling to be lost. When I am, I feel like I am in the wilderness, not knowing what is around the next tree. Will I find a place to rest? Will there be water and shelter? Most especially, will I find my destination without being hurt?
I am in the wilderness right now. It may not look like it on the outside, but I am wandering. I am trying to desperately hold on to my faith, to stay still long enough to feel God’s presence, and even with my best of my intentions, it’s not always enough.
I have to be careful while in the wilderness because there are times my mind travels to places it should not visit. Those places are where some of my demons live. Those terrible destinations call me to a place where I begin to think that I don’t want to be found.
But this time in the wilderness is a time for me to grow and seek out God. I’ve learned that it doesn’t have to always be a sad, painful journey, but I have even experienced joy. I am looking forward to coming to the end of my journey being fully replenished and ready to heal.
If you are in the wilderness, my hope is that you journey well. And when you come to an opening through the trees and you look up to the vastness of the sky, that you give thanks to God for never leaving you.
Today I Am Thankful For:
- a weekend filled with friends and laughter
- a big, fat navel orange
- clean laundry
- Chap Stick
- snow flurries