It’s been a month since I lost my job. I have gone through every emotion imaginable as I have been dealing with such a significant loss. It’s funny how what seemed to have been the worst thing in the world has turned out to be one of the best. I don’t have a job yet, but the possibilities are endless and for that I am extremely grateful.
One morning I walked out in my front yard to watch Caeleb walk to the bus stop. I had a hot cup of coffee warming my hands and threw on my coat because winter had finally arrived. I was greeted by a beautiful sign. A sign that helped me feel hopeful for the first time in a while, and it completely changed the course of my attitude. My rosebush had been pruned and leaves were starting to wither in the cold, but one, single rosebud decided to bloom that morning. It was the only sign of color in my yard and it stood proudly, all alone, weathering the frost. I like to think that God was telling me, “Hey, cut the pity party! I’ve got you. It’s going to work out.”
How often do we forget that God loves each and every one of us close? He loves us with an all-consuming love that never dies and we forget to trust in Him. Ugh! I am so guilty of that! I begin to worry and wonder and “what-if” and get all wrapped up in my thinking…which is very dangerous, and I let my faith and my trust in Him die away. If I could just convince myself that I am loved I would be okay. I find it easy to tell others that they are loved by God, but I will not believe it for myself.
And then He shows up.
I looked at that mighty little rosebud and smiled. I felt God’s arms wrap around me that cold morning and have since realized that His plan for me is different than what I had originally had in mind. Funny how we “think” we know where God wants us, but sometimes it takes a good shake up to wake up.
I’m not sure how, but that little rosebud is still hanging on.
And I am too.
Today I Am Thankful For:
- Christmas lights
- New binders
- My newest creation!
- Serving communion